HAHA LOOK AT MY HAND!!!

Hella faded. Oh well. Its was fun experience. Hurt quite a bit but I'd do it again.

MY EVIL TWIN

whos who...???

STEVIE GUNZ QUESTIONNAIRE

Please copy and paste with your answers in an FB message or email me at steviegunz@gmail.com

#1: what is my real 'full' name?



#2: do you know of my other nicknames?



#3:.a. if you can remember, what did you think of me upon or before our first encounter? (don't be afraid to be honest)

#3.b. how did you hear of me before we meet in person?



#4: what things (if any) do you find enjoyable in my personality?



#5: what things (if any) do you find bothersome in my personality?



#6: are there any stories you have that youd like to share between you and I? Or just something you've been meaning to say but never had the chance???
Whatever it may be, please feel free to write any other thoughts below now.











Clause of Comfort:
if you share something with me here that you would like to keep private, don't worry. I'm doin this for me. No other eyes but mine will see your answers.

WHAT?! I CANT DO THAT!?

So I noticed I am always (unintentionally) attracted to girls who have a little... ehh thugness in em. Haha. Its not something I seek out. Its always something I find out later on. But maybe its the mannerisms I'm attracted to or how they talk. Yeah I'm weird. Oh well. Maybe that's why I'm never really attracted to white girls. They never have that sexy look to them or that bad ass bitch steez. Haha well some do but theyre usually just actual bitches who wear lots of eye make up. Not to say I think all white girls are ugly... I do NOT think that. No no no... I know lots of super pretty white girls. We just never had any sparks, ya know? So on that note. Have a good week. See ya around.

SOMETIMES

...Her and I, we still argue about stuff. But its never anything really worth arguing about. Its always cute stuff that I make a big deal of, just to see her get frustrated with me... Cuz she's so adorable when she's mad. But then she sees I'm just being difficult and gets embarrassed I got her all flustered for nothing haha. She loves me in all my forms and even watches those weird kung fu movies or the tattoo shows with me late at nite. She gets even with me in public for all the embarrassing things I do by callin my name across the store and attaching silly pet names to it. Haha I love her sense of humor. She can always brighten my gloomy days with a story or two... But mostly with just a smile and a genuine embrace that says "ill never let you go". She's my best friend. She calls me to just say hello and nothing more sometimes. And sometimes that's all that I need to make my day. She is my counselor too. If I'm not sure of something she always gives me advice on how to handle it. I can talk to her about anything... Like I said she's my best friend. She sometimes doesn't like my friends, but it always turns out she was right about them. We always have fun doin whatever were doin anywhere we are. I believe that is TRUE love. Love at all times. In all circumstances. Don't you? See, Ill always love her cuz she has always loved me." There is no other" she says "that is like you!"

And I believe her with all my heart, even though I think all mothers say this to their children at some point.

SEE YA MANG

It seems God has given me a lot of time to myself. Even though I HATE it, I guess I should go ahead and take advantage of this alone time to really gather my self (mentally, spiritually, physically) and get to work on my crafts. I really DO have lots of ideas and inspirations running thru my mind all the time but I also have this horrible voice in my head tellin me I'm no good... and I'm nowhere now and ill never be anywhere later. But I can't listen to that. I have to remember I'm not a turkey, I'm an eagle and I CAN fly. Matter of fact, I can SOAR! So it might be a while before anyone hears from me. Other than visiting me at work, you probably won't see me either. I gotta fight my demons now... Bruce Lee style.

EAGLE POWERS

So I have this awesome story that truly inspired me as a teenager looking to use my talents to make a career for myself. It was told to me by my youth pastor when I was probably 16. It was a great time to hear this story too. I was struggling to find my niche and other like minded people.

Once, there was an eagle who made her nest up in a tree on a farm. She laid her eggs and one fell to the earth below. It didn't break because it fell close to a turkey egg nest. As all the turkey eggs hatched so did that eagle egg. They all grew up together watchin the other birds in the sky. All of them dreamin of how it would be to fly. Then the eagle who grew amongst the turkeys saw another eagle soaring high in the sky and said "I want to soar like that beautiful bird there!" But his dreams were soon squander by his fellow turkeys sayin "That?! That is an eagle! You're just a turkey, an ugly turkey too. You will never be able to soar like that" So he dismissed his dreams and lived his life as a turkey never knowing he already was that beautiful bird.

Never listen to the turkeys around you. Remember, you are an eagle and you can soar if you want to.

SOMEWHERE OUT THERE

Star gazing makes me want to go to space. (no I'm not high) but lookin up at the stars makes me wonder what its like out there. Even though we will never get to visit any other solar systems its fun to dream about other planets. Watchin that Planet Earth show makes me wonder what alien life is like. What do their plants look like? Do they have trees like we do? Stuff like that. Not spaceships and all that crap. I'm sure there are planets that only have plant life. I saw recently they found 2 or 3 planets in a system 22 light years away (That's really really far, but pretty close in space terms) that possibly have huge oceans. The planets don't have names, just some crazy numbers I can't remember. Anyway, they say if those planets have water they are more than likely to have life on them. Too bad it would take far too long for any human to ever reach that solar system. Itd be nice to know there were other planets with life. They would probably come out with some awesome technology to travel thru space by bending/warping the fabirc of space and time. I know they gotta be close to that shit. Haha they can test it with Lance Bass.

TAKEN or SINGLE

I often hear girls complain that the cute guys they have crushes on are gay or they are taken.

And that seems to be the case for myself as well. Every girl I come across that I am extremely attracted to (and seems to be interested in me as well) has a boyfriend. wtf. Ok, I really do respect relationships but sometimes I would still pursue them. Bad, yeah I know. Karma has already taught me my lesson, don't worry. Anyway...

But this is why I'm writing about it now. If I'm not to come between these girls and there boyfriends... I'm just perplexed as to why I keep meeting beautiful, interesting, intelligent, taken girls that wanna be my "friend"? At least be a cool enough "friend" to know I'm a single guy that would appreciate meeting your pretty single friends. If you don't got any, ok. That's fine, Its no biggie. But if you DO, you're an ass! I'm just sayin. Evaluate your 'friend' characteristics when you befriend a dude. That's all.

And I'm no player, what so ever. I've never broken up any girls from there relationships or had them cheat with me. Also, I've NEVER cheated on any girlfriend I've ever had. Believe what you want, but that's a fact. The girls I pursued that were in relationships, before, were so intriguing that I thought I couldn't just be their friend. I had to have more. But in the end I realized either friendship was perfect for us or that she wasn't what I thought and I aborted my chase. But I'm off to Texas this fall. Let's see what happens.

THIS IS STRICTLY FOR LAUGHS...

but if you wanna fill it out, go 'head...
email steviegunz@gmail.com






“The Official Girlfriend Application”
This application must be filled out in its entirety in order to be considered for the position that you are applying. Photographs or other attached documents may sway my opinion one way or the other; feel free to attach anything you think may help you gain this position. Keep in mind that you must be completely honest while filling out this form. Your answers will be checked through Google, MySpace, Facebook, and other methods I deem necessary.

Any false information gives me the right to immediately void your application.

Section 1: Basic Information
Full Name ____________________________________________________________
Last/First/Middle

Current Residence ______________________________________________________
City/State/Zip

Nickname _______________Age _____
Eye Color ______Natural Hair Color __________Current Hair Color __________
Height ______Weight (Circle One) 100<100 & 175<175

Section 2: Contact Information

Home Phone ____________________
Cell Phone _____________________
IM Name (Please specify service, SKYPE preferred) _____________________
Email __________________________

Section 3: The Deal Breakers
Yes/No

Are you or have you ever been a man?
Do you smoke and/or use other tobacco products?
Do you drink heavily on a regular basis?
Do you use any illegal substances?
Do you have any arm/hip/breast/large torso tattoos?
Disregarding your ears, do you have any piercings? 
Regarding your ears, are they gauged larger than 1/16of an inch and/or
might they set off metal detectors at airports or government buildings?
Have you ever been convicted of anything by a court of law?

If you answered “Yes” to any of the previous questions, you may stop filling
out the application now as I am are not currently interested in your services.

Section 4: Getting to Know You
Highest level of education (Circle One) High School/Some College/College Graduate
What is your religious affiliation? _________________________________________________
What is your political persuasion? _________________________________________________
Could you explain what above stated persuasion stands for? Y/N
Do you have any siblings? Y/N
If yes, list their names and ages. ____________________________________________
What’s your all-time favorite movie? ______________________________________________
I’ve seen: (Circle all that apply) Nacho Libre/Matrix Trilogy/Star Wars IV,V,VI/Paid in Full/A Bronx Tale
Are you easily distracted by shiny things? Y/N
List your 2 favorite musical genres. _______________________________________________
Favorite sport and team (If any) __________________________________________________
Do you ski / snowboard? Y/N
If no, would you be willing to learn? Y/N
Do you currently have a source of income? Y/N
If yes, what is it? ________________________________________________________
Your thoughts on time travel? ____________________________________________________
What kind of car do you currently drive? ___________________________________________

Section 5: Short Answer

Describe yourself using three to four adjectives and zero to one noun.
____________________________________________________________________________
What is your idea of a perfect date, in three sentences or less?
____________________________________________________________________________
____________________________________________________________________________
____________________________________________________________________________
What characteristics of mine led you to apply for this position?
____________________________________________________________________________
____________________________________________________________________________
Explain why I should pick you as my girlfriend in one sentence.
____________________________________________________________________________

List any special skills you have that may be relevant to this position.
____________________________________________________________________________
____________________________________________________________________________

Section 6: Relationship Background

List the details of your past three relationships, starting with the most recent.

Name of Boyfriend:

Start Date:       End Date:

Were you the: (Circle one) Dumper / Dumpee

Reason for breakup:

***************************
Name of Boyfriend:

Start Date:       End Date:

Were you the: (Circle one) Dumper / Dumpee

Reason for breakup:

***************************
Name of Boyfriend:

Start Date:End Date:

Were you the: (Circle one) Dumper / Dumpee

Reason for breakup:

Section 7: References

Please Supply three references and their contact information (Phone, and/or Email).
____________________________________________________________________________
____________________________________________________________________________
____________________________________________________________________________

Section 8: Certification

I hereby certify that the information given by me in this application is true to the best of my
knowledge, and I give you the authorization to verify it using any means deemed appropriate. I
understand that filling out this form and submitting it for review does not guarantee that I will be chosen. I also understand that my information will not be released to independent 3parties
and will only be viewed by the final judge(s).

Date: _____________Applicant Signature: __________________________________




=P

WHERE ARE YOU?

...I wish I had someone to call. Well, I guess I just miss being in love. That was a really awesome time. I can't wait to see what TX has to offer me. Hopefully I meet some good people and am able to get the jobs I'm goin for. I know my tattoos will throw some people off but I hope theyll look pass that. man, I don't really know how Texas people view tattoos soooo... I hope I haven't screwed myself here. Maybe the soulmate I've been searching for is there too. Who knows.

But either way, I'm leaving you Seattle. Sorry. You've been good to me in most ways but I need a new surrounding and i need my family. If there IS something in Seattle for me, show me it and make me stay. If not, Goodbye my emerald city.

STEVIE FACT

Most of the posts I do, I do straight from my blackberry bold 2.

Sometimes I'm walkin around and I have stuff on my mind I need to let out or I'm layin in bed, like right now. I like to go over stuff that has happened to me and replay it in my head before I even start typing. That way I can just plop down my stories quickly and have it be worded correctly from the start. There are so many posts that have never made it to the site too. Just because it wouldn't send or I decided that what I was gonna say would really upset some people and I didn't truly feel that way. So even though I may seem really open on this site, I DO limit myself when speakin my mind.

BEFORE AND AFTER

Note to self... Eternal note pad

MORE SILLY DREAMER TALK

I've heard a lot on dreams lately. About the strangeness of it all. Mainly on night terrors. Wow I do NOT want to experience them. Buuut I think I might have as a child cuz I've had some seriously horrific nightmares and now that I think back... I remember seein dark figures in my room after those nightmares just standing there. But when I would try to focus my eyes and really LOOK at who was in my room it wouldn't be there. So ok maybe I had some haha. But I don't know if I've ever woken up ina panic or something. I don't remember anything like that. But I think I'm somewhat scared of the dark. I noticed I start to get freaked out when I have to turn my back ina really dark room and turn back around haha. So maybe sleepin ina super dark room fuels some scary dreams for me. I don't know.

But anyway, I've heard of people gettin really violent physically when they are in a dream state. Like runnin around the room, screaming, and having no recall of any events. Just a dream totally unrelated to their behavior. Like Travis (sp)Pastrana crazy stories of him and his night terrors.

I read this girls story about her being asleep in her hotel and wakin up on the floor lookin up at a dark figure. (Was still sleepin)When she looked harder and focused it was gone and she saw lots of little angels floating and holding up a curtain I think I was... I forgot but she was just sittin there in her dream for a while lookin at these tiny angels floating above her. Then she woke up in the emergency room. She asked her parents later on what had happend. They said upon wakin her up she jumped up ran around the room screaming for her life knockin over all the furniture just out of control. So they gathered her up and took her to the nearest hospital. she had NO idea she was doin that cuz her dream was completely unrelated to her physical behavior.

I remember my parents talkin to me about my sleep walkin or talkin and stuff. Like they would come wake me up and talk to me about stuff and then not remember anything when they asked me about it later. Or when I was, maybe, ten I woke up the day after Halloween to go check out my candy stash. But it was mostly all gone. I was like WTF where all my candy!? My dad said "what? You ate it all lastnight!" Me:"Huh? But I went to bed right after I came home."
Dad: "I know you did, but I found you on the recliner chair asleep with all the candy wrappers around you early this morning. I picked you up and put you in your bed just a little bit ago"
Man oh man I was heated! Haha I couldn't believe I did that. I ate all my candy and didn't get to enjoy it haha.

SO IVE BEEN AWAY

I've been messin around on facebook and other blog sites and just kinda layin low, doin some soul searching. I've had some real ups and downs lately. Mainly downs unfortunately. But I just gotta keep my head up, right? I'm not at the end yet. I can't give in or give up. That's never been my style. I've been looking at what ima do career wise and I can't see myself doin anything other than being involved with youth. Every job I've loved has had that common factor in it. Being able to impart knowledge on younger developing minds brings the most amazing joy to my life. I love youth and I want to be there to help guide kids when noone else can relate. That's what I love to do.

Band Wagon

tees, hoodies, beanies...

available at BC surf & sport in the Alderwood mall in Lynnwood.

I think its time to accept defeat

...

SOLO DOLO LIFE

Sucks...

Being lonely is an awful feeling. I have noone to call when I wanna share a story cuz I'm not sure if they really care. And sometimes I call or text anyway and then I can tell they really don't. Sucks not having a best friend in the same timezone.
I have so much time on my hands and I want to share it with others. I hate being alone maaaaan. Even sleeping. I don't wanna do it alone. Wakin up alone sucks. I want someone to brush my teeth with in the morning. I'm gonna hate living alone in LA for a while... I know it. But its gotta be done. Seattle is so draining nowa days and I don't have anyone here. I'm gone.

WORKIN HARD...

Holla at my dude www.tattooedfiend.tumblr.com if ur on tumblr...

GOODTIMES...

Doo Doo Tron can always make me laugh. He really brightens up my day. Ima throw a video in my next post of how funny he is and why he makes me love him and life so much. Hahaha its gonna be some good stuff.

damn hes not here. ill figure something out...

GROWN UP TALK...

i dont know if i wanna get married anymore. seems like a waste of time now. everyone cheats/has wandering eyes or is plain unhappy. married women talk about sex like its a chore and married men talk like its some elusive shooting star that youre lucky to come across every couple months...

who wants that...?

like.. really... who???

STRAIGHT EDGE...

this is the lamest title anyone has ever given me.
instead of my being a regular guy, you gotta label me as straight edge??? that makes me seem like im some lame, no personality, stiff neck Mormon. i just dont have any interest in gettin high. but now i gotta say...

i hate drugs and most of the people who use em. ...there isnt a computer screen big enough to display the "FUCK YOU" i want to post. so just know i truly hate you and your lazy stoner life. im not saying im better than you cuz i dont do drugs but you sure as hell arent on my level.

if i offend you with this post, good, you now know your faults. step your life up.

KENNY POWERS GETS SIGNED TO K-SWISS

R.I.P. MY DUDES

Will be finished soon...

OLD SKOOL...

REAL TALK

I guess I'm always on the look out for interesting girls. Not really GF material... Just interesting girls. If it manifests into that, then awesome! But in all reality I just love learning about people. When someone opens up to me about their life, it feels good, because I know not everyone does that so freely like me. and when they do, I give them an attentive ear for how ever long they need it. If they want advice, I do my best to give them my honest thoughts and how I see the situation.
And with that said, I just wanna lay it out there that I truly appreciate honest people. You don't have to lie to me thinkin I will judge you. Real talk.

THIS IS ME...

NO HOMO

Marc graduated Parsons New School blah blah in NY in 1986
and then launched his name sake brand the same year.

Marc Jacobs

i was BORN in 1986... and im just now starting my own name sake brand...

STEVIEGUNZ

i hope i can be as cool as him when im 40 or how ever old he is now

dont mind this halfnaked picture of a man on my blog.
i just think its cool that hes probably the only high-end designer that can model his own underwear...
besides Domenico Dolce and Stefano Gabbana.


G SHIT!!!

WEALTHY LIFE

Every star has haters and once they make it big they talk about how they were able to overcome the negativity. And I was thinkin to myself the other day, man I can't stand it when I hear bad news. Haters really do get to me. But I had to realize the only hater I have is ME. No one talks down to me. All I have is love all around me, I am truly blessed. The longest I've ever been without a job is... what, a month maybe??? But I was still makin money in that time, I've never been flat broke. God always put someone there to pick me back up when I fell. Noone has come into my life and told me I wasn't good enough. Its actually been the complete opposite!

But to be honest, I'm workin on stuff alone most of the time and it gets difficult to get amped up to do greater things. I noticed I need constant support to stay alive. Bad moods destroy my creative edge completely. So I've got a good thing goin for me, cuz everywhere I go... I mean EVERYwhere... ANYtime I'm out... I see someone who knows me and they are hyped on what I'm doin or what I did or where I'm about to go.
God really knows what I need.
True example of a GODS SON. I don't got my billions yet but my life is truly rich.

WHACHU DOIN...

"oh what, you work here???" ...no im just here everyday, duh

BIG DUMMY

Going where God is, is better than goin where i want and tryin to find Him.

hard lesson learned after ## years.


and im not tryna be all churchy either... ima real person. i dont associate with those fake churchy types. i know how the world works and ive see most everything there is to see. but now i see that goin against God hasnt worked for me so why not try to go with Him. He is the creator of everything... kinda stupid to fight someone like that. and if you dont believe in God, thats fine... these posts about God arent meant for you to convert or whatever. im just writing. so dont get bent outta shape about my beliefs. ok???

im tryna do me.

WOW... THIS IS GOOD

NO NO NO...

what i noticed i dont like...

*people smokin around me.
*giant tattoos... lots of small ones are cooler
*people who say "cant wait to get drunk this weekend"... every Thursday.
*people who cant drive worth shit but wanna pick everyone up. yeah, not tryna vomit or die.
*dogs... pets
*people who wanna get high before you go hang out. ...am i really that lame to you? then dont be talk to me.
*flakes
*navy blue
*girls who like to talk about their boyfriends. ...im not him. please stop.
*girls who talk about RnB singers... im not one of your girls ok... i dont think hes hott
*airheads
*colored shirts
*people with a bland sense of humor
*people who dont get sarcasm
*LIARS... dont tell me what i wanna hear. just be real and stop wasting my time you ASS.
*people who never commit to what they say.
*bad smelling food, i dont care how good it tastes once you get past the smell... ITS GROSS!!!
*mayo
*boring sex/loose vag and not cumming because of it.
*hairy bodies
*being late
*people who dont care about being late
*fucks who are ALWAYS late
*drugs
*body/facial piercings
*non creative people... these people cant even hold a convo most of the time.
*know it all fucks who just have really strong opinions about everything... fuck off.
*mainly people who the negative side to everything... just enjoy your self dammit. youre breathing right??

G'd UP

Rozay!!!

NEW BABY COUSIN

Samantha... Simply adorable.

DRAWING SOME DRAWINGS

Gettin my flash game up. ok i know im not the best artist... but at least im doin something.

SPECIAL PERSONS STUFF

Going to Barnes & Noble to sit down and read books, magazines, etc. Okay, maybe we occasionally pick up a book about sex. Staying at home, instead of going out. Watching movies or watching the Law & Order: Special Victims Unit marathon .. maybe even watching Drake as Jimmy on the replays of Degrassi.  Cuddling, just cuddling. Quick kiss here and there, giggling about nothing. Self-timer photoshoots! Those are the best. Buying food, and taking it home for that “romantic dinner” even though we just end up eating it on the couch while watching your shows. Buying cake and cookie mix, and baking it at home. You might end up burning them, but it’s okay .. it was fun while it lasted. Holding each other’s hands .. just looking at each other gives me that warm fuzzy feeling. Walking around, doing nothing. Driving around, with no intention to really get anywhere .. but I enjoy the trip. Having random food runs, just because. Maybe even driving 60 miles to get thai tea with boba (: Laying down, just sleeping. Being in each other’s arms.

It is amazing to find that the most simplest things are enjoyed with great company.

TWO WOLVES

An elderly Cherokee Native American was teaching his grandchildren about life…

He said to them, “A fight is going on inside me, it is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves.

One wolf is evil — he is fear, anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, competition, superiority, and ego.

The other is good—-he is joy, peace, love, hope, sharing, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, friendship, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.

This same fight is going on inside you, and inside every other person, too.”

They thought about it for a minute and then one child asked his grandfather, “Which wolf will win?”

The old Cherokee simply replied: “The one you feed”

God, i need some love today.

thats all.

thanks jesus.

I FUUUUUUUUUUX WITH LA!!!

i really wanna be back. skateboarding and fashion are my life. i can honestly say i see nothing left in Seattle for me. except great friends.

WONT YOU COME BE IN THE SKY WITH ME?

i love this track. just peep it for your self.

Unthinkable (I'm Ready) by ALICIA

IM SAAAYIN

God is good. Haha God has been faithful to me and I've been over lookin all the blessings Hes placed in my life. Sometimes I forget that I got love in every city I go to. Even if I roll the bus, I see someone who knows me and who's happy to see me... Noone ever judges me. I can't go anywhere without feeling Gods love all around me. Well, I never saw it like that before tonite, but now I realize what I've been witnessing all this time. Thanks for the love yall.

A LIL ABOUT YOURS TRULY

...I forgot what I was gonna say

DIPSEEEET!!!

FIT FOR THE DAY

i dont know what im doin in this picture but its good enough.


































my head looks HUGE and my hands look so tiny haha

HOW WE DO...

only Gs dont use patterns... no rough drafts. on final product.

WHERE MY FRIENDS AT???

BROTHERS FROM ANOTHER

my dudes are killin!!!


No Shirt by BFA

MUSIC...

really seems to be my only release and escape other than taking walks under the stars. and i hardly see these stars. but i hate taking these walks alone. i want someone else to talk to besides God. cuz He dont talk back. but back to music...

i love soulful music. music that i can really relate to. rappers that speak their MIND(with a great melody) and not just talk shit on records. i love singers who really sing their heart out in any genre. but i love FLOW! if you got that flow, thats when my shitty day melts away and i just submerge myself in a beautiful moment or two... a song.



Kick Push by LUPE

Through The Wire (Remix) by YEEZY

Jesus Walks - unmastered by YEEZY

Spaceship by YEEZY

Trunk Muzik by YELAWOLF

STILL SEARCHING

...for that person to get lost with

HAHA CLOWNIN'

dont worry, im not serious about this stuff...
cuz i know there are gonna be those people that are like...

"psshhhh, this shit is WACK! kill yo self. you the worst rapper ever" ahaha well, these songs i put up are not for review homie. its just here for your enjoyment... and if you dont get it, then dont listen or read anymore. thanks. now have a laugh with me...



La LaLa by steviegunz

I HAVE TO CREATE MY OWN FUN

so here i am again... with all my plans failing each day. here are some pics i took since im by myself day in, day out. ...hairyface... shavedface...

CHOMP ON THIS

Good morning. Even though I only clocked in about 4 or so hours of sleep. I feel good to be alive haha.
Just awoke from a dream inside a dream. I was a body guard for some Tom Cruise lookin muthafucka and I was on duty at a family function. (If u remember what I said earlier about my dreams... some of this will be easy to comprehend)
The gathering was ina field near a swamp. The kid area was next to the swamp to be specific. And I saw an alligator so I advised we get the kids the hell outta there.

My Boss: "oh no I just sent my Stacy to play over there!"

...my heart sank cuz I couldn't live with myself if I let a little 2 year old get killed. So we ran across the swamp... Yes, straight across the top of the water... Anyway, we find her real fast and turn to run back. I saw it on the way over so I said "go behind me, get on this side..."

Fuuucccck I didnt even make it half way across yall... I got attacked from the bottom... I could feel the teeth puncture the skin of my stomach/side and back. It chomped again and then I felt my ribs start to snap like walkin on sticks in the woods. The pain, oh my God, was so real... It was an insane and unbearable pain. The kind of pain where the loudest scream only demonstrates the tip of the iceberg of what i was feelin. Fear filled my body... Then I was in a classroom lookin at some students and one of em looked like me. I think I woke right then.
Crazy right?

80 DEGREES...

but im not really feelin too hot ...long story short... all in all, yesterday was shit.

spent alot of money... took many naps.. let a lot of demeaning things get to me(kinda still bummin me today)... and wow... now that i think about it, actually NONE of my plans worked out yesterday. damn... i walked around doin/waitin for nothing, by myself... all day... FUCK.


i need to just get really busy. cuz im not missing anything by goin to work all day. its not like everyone is dying to chill with me or im meeting lots of girls. damn im dumb. ...like i said, see you on the streets!

NEW NEW

Hmmm its a short sleeve. I'm just not too sure about short sleeve button ups on me. Well anyway, I bought it. I gotta wear it. See you on the streets!!!

GO LOVE ON SOMEBODY

I don't know why the reality of this just hit me today cuz I'm sure I've sincerely said it before.

But having material things and no one to share them with is a complete waste. And why I'm speakin on this now is because I realized, I'm buyin clothes and gadgets and shoes to look nice and fresh and polished... But for who??? I don't know who I can call to share my thoughts on my day. Ok there are a few buuuuut I gotta be real, 90% of the time, people don't answer their phones and sometimes texts get lost along the way and u never know if they get it. So its hard to connect with people that are just homies u chat with weekly. and then there are homies you talk to but youre not sure if they hate it or not when you call to blab about your day. sooo its a rough world out there for people like me who love sharing.

Well I think we all need that one significant other we can hit up all the time for no reason and they hit u up too just to say "yo I saw this crazy blah blah blah" Because we ALL love/want to know someone is out there thinkin about us, for whatever reason. Whether it be your best friend or your lover or a potential lover. right?

FOTO

playing with my cam again. self portraits are the most fun for me. cuz i dont think ive had too many pictures taken of me... or maybe ive had so many taken of me as a kid that i love it. haha im not sure. well anyway...

here you go.

THOSE WERE THE DAAAAAAAAYS

damn, lookin back at what ive done and the people ive met at so young. i realized i have SO much more awesome stuff waiting for me in the future. yeah i miss it. i miss my homies. i miss ehlo. i miss being my own boss.

but all that stuff was for that time only. im in the now. i got more stuff to work for. i gotta keep loving and workin hard. cuz God wont take something from you without having something better to replace it at some point.

TEFLON DON

one of my favorite songs on the album.
even though i can listen to it front to back no skippin... just repeating songs before i let it go to the next track =D

this one is a great ender. awesome productions.

All The Money In The World by steviegunz

JUST BROWSIN

so im lookin thru my computer for music i had stored up. look what i stumbled upon. MC BASICK HOLLA ATCHA BOOOOOOOY!!!


High Society (butt crack) by steviegunz

GETTIN IT INNN pt2

...or maybe I just need to cum

GETTIN IT INNN

Sometimes I think I'm not properly expressing MY mind or how I see the world. But. Whatever, its good enough.

Anyway... I've been having lots of sexual dreams the past month. And I'm not complaining at all =P But I don't know where all this is coming from! I don't watch pornos on the regular. Shit, I can't even say I "watch" porn. Its just random whenever I see it. So I know I'm not pumpin my self up with sexual fantasies.

But don't get me wrong, I'm no prude haha. i LOVE makin love to my woman(where ever she may be) =P But I'm really NOT thinkin about sex aaaall day like most guys. even though a lot of my convos with certain people lately have mainly been about sex... haha I'm really not like that. I've never felt comfortable tellin friends or the homies what I do in the bed room, just not me.

But a lot of my dreams for a while now are about me being naked or havin freaky awesome sex. I'm confused. And I don't have "wet dreams" either. I'm not blowin loads in my sleep. That's never happened. GROSS!!! haha

But all in all, I'm glad I'm not havin night terrors haha.

NIGHT TERRORS... creepy

Although night terrors can occur anytime in a persons life span, the most common is reported in children between the ages of three and five. (However more recent studies have turned up showing that many adults as well as children as young as six months experience night terrors on a weekly basis.) Night terrors usually occur fifteen minutes to one hour after going to sleep. I personally experience mine at just about the 45 minute mark. The longer the person is in NREM (the stages before REM) before the night terror strikes, the more petrified they will be when it occurs. Keep in mind though not everyone falls to sleep in the same amount of time as others. This makes a sleep study about the only way of determining what stage of sleep you are in when these events occur.

Night terrors have been shown to appear in stage 4 of sleep. This is just one thing that separates them from nightmares which can occur anytime in sleep. It is possible to make a night terror occur in some people, simply by touching or awakening them during stage 4 of sleep. Why night terrors occur is still a mystery. The mind is supposed to be practically void during the deeper stages of sleep. Most sufferers will awake gasping, moaning, crying but more often screaming.     

Breahing rapidly they will sit up in bed with a wide eyed terror filled stare. This panic will often last anywhere from five to twenty minutes. I find the most amazing aspect of night terrors is that it generates a heart rate of 160 to 170 beats per minute. This is much faster than the normal heart rate that can be attained under most stressful circumstances.

Some things that can help bring out a night terror are stress, medications that affect the brain, (It is hard to list exactly which ones) being over-tired or eating a heavy meal before going to bed. Combining all of the above I can usually guarantee an occurrence for myself. Many different medical ailments contribute to the frequency of Night Terrors. (Once again to many and to hard to list, Please do not e-mail me to have one added.) The listed items DO NOT cause night terrors, they just seem to put your body into the state where a night terror can manifest itself. People without night terrors will not have a night terror just by trying the above.

There seems to be a common thread in how night terrors manifest themselves. Many people who remember the night terror have talked about seeing animals or people. Most people describe the person that they see as dark and shadowy and feel that the person is going to hurt them. Quite a few people see snakes and spiders. At first I thought people were seeing only things they are afraid of during waking hours. After more research I found that only a small percentage of people were afraid of what they see (in night terrors) during waking hours.

SO I've DECIDED... pt 1

Yes these things may be dumb and will probably change soon but I'm gonna go forth with it anyway.

First off is sleep, I hate it. Its always in the way of my plans or when I'm really tryna get something finished. I hate the idea of sleeping just because is night time. I only wanna sleep to pass the time, or when I'm DEAAAD tired. And I only like sleeping for a little bit. If I go to bed at 3am and wake up at 5am then I'm up. I don't wanna waste my day away. If I'm still sleepy... Ill lay down again. but if I open my eyes and only ten mins past... I'm gettin up. The only thing cool about sleepin is sex dreams. Haha and noone can argue that.

Part 2 coming soon...

YEEEYY THATS MY DUDES RIGHT THERE!!!

im ultra bummed i had to work that night. i SOOOO wish i could have been apart of the one year anni. but peep my dudes. they kill.

BFA (one year anniversary) from Zac McConnell on Vimeo.

STUPID COMPUTER CALANDER

Kinda weird. I was supposed to be gettin married today. I hadn't thought of that since Nov last year. July 17th was the date we set. But I guess all of that stuff wasn't real. It feels different now when I talk about her too. Not like I'm sad or upset from the things that happend but just like its an ordinary story. Something that provokes no emotion. Its just something to say, Its a good feeling, really. To not be burdened by any hurt or anger. Its always best to move on from things that never lift you up. Right? ...right

SALAD TIME

I always eat at this restaurant alone. I don't know why. I never bring anyone here, but its not like its a secret spot or anything. I just like eating here alone. Weird, I know.

BOOM!!!

just watch...

ok i do NOT condone this what so ever BUT!!! a big BUT...
dude at the end of the video is right. girls need to stop acting crazy cuz you will get popped in the face by somebody eventually. ... and you will look like this idiot here. i hope shes ok though.

THATS MY DUDE!!!

no homo

Thanks for the pic tom. Looks sick

DAMN THIS IS... WOW

Lollipops turn into cigarettes. The innocent ones turn into sluts. Homework goes in the trash. Mobile phones are being used in class. Detention becomes a suspension. Soda becomes vodka. Bikes become cars. Kisses turn into sex. Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground? When protection meant wearing a helmet? When the worst thing you could get from boys were cooties? Dad’s shoulders were the highest place on earth and Mom was your hero? Your worst enemies were your siblings. Race issues were about who ran the fastest. War was only a card game. And the only drug you knew was cough medicine. When wearing a skirt didn’t make you a slut. The most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees, and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow? And we couldn’t wait to grow up….

WHAT DO I LOOK AT...

when i look at you ladies??

hmm besides my real name, i get this question alot too.
so i thought id try to type it out and break it down. for my self and you who read

now this isnt a list of my perfect lady... this is a list to explain how i see you and what you present your self like to me... my opinion... my thoughts on you ladies out there...

*i always look at girls butts and legs. if they got good jeans on or if they know how to dress. i like them skinny jeans, none of that boot cut flare shit. come on. if you short... those jeans arent helping haha
*im always lookin to see if you got pretty eyes or if you wear LOTS of make up. theres a difference. know it.
*do you talk about drinkin and smoking and the parties you go to??? NOT HOTT. just cuz you do grown folk shit doesnt make you look grown. it makes you look like a KID tryna be cool. no one is impressed by that shit. that goes for ladies over 21 too. gettin shitty at every event you go to makes you look dumb. straight up.
*how you walk is what catches me and if you got confidence in your stride then im all in.
*if you talk about being a bad bitch... then you are boring. cuz bad bitches dont call them selves out like that. they just are! =D
*i always like girls who talk the same to everyone... non of that fake sweet voice shit when you wanna be polite and then a relaxed voice when they leave like "...pssh fuckin bitch better blah blah blah" you know what im referencing. JUST BE YOU!!! if you aint a sweet girl then stop faking. real is way more attractive.
*if you got smoker hands... gross.
*i know im easy to talk to... i guess... but if youre "interested" in me, dont talk to me about your ex-boyfriend. i dont care who he is. i care about YOU and ME, if you got issues still from that relationship... im not Dr. Phil. sorry.
*when we hang out, if you be on the phone half the time i know to drop you off early and go chill with my homies. dont be texting and doin twitter updates and shit if you really tryna kick it. i understand if youre not feelin me. but let me know so i can have you stop wasting my time.

thats all i can think of for now...

have a good day and try not to be a fake bitch who cant dress. hahahahaha just saying...